Life's so funny!!

So many people come in and out of your life. It's always a bit sad when you think you've lost someone. No matter what the reason is, it appears that they are gone. Moved on. Whether it's temporary or permanent, it's still a feeling of loss.

Then, there are others who pop back into your life and you don't know how that happened. All of a sudden, after 30 years, they are back. It's rediscovery time, but you have a history.

Always, always, always, you have your family. Your family is there through it all. They are sometimes happy with you and sometimes not. But, they are always there. When I'm feeling lonely, I call my sister. She's there when no one else is.

I prided in my solo state, a loner, doing what I wanted when I wanted. Now, though, that I've tasted being with someone, I feel lonely again.

I have been busy and now that I have down time, I don't know what to do. I find myself playing games, wasting time. What a horrible thing, to waste time. As you'll never get it back.

How I want not to be lonely but it's hard. Alone in my place, alone with my computer, alone with my stuff... alone. Maybe I've become clingy, maybe I've become high maintenance. But I want to be with someone all the time and not alone, is that too much to ask? Maybe so and maybe I need to learn to be happy alone again.

After a very long time (possibly ever), I have someone to do things with and when he is gone, I feel this terrible lonliness. I like being the center of his world, and when I'm not, I feel a bit of jealousy, maybe. He changed my life and now needs to leave from time to time.

Honestly, the person I started writing about isn't the person I ended with. These Rose-colored glasses are a bit foggy right now, so I'm quite sure no one is following. That's ok. I needed to write.